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The Blessing of the Unknown
March 23, 2017
“The first step… shall be to lose the way”. This Galway Kinnell quote is good medicine, the antidote for old, ingrained ways of being. Maybe it’s being a woman or man of “a certain age”, maybe it’s having perceived life over and over in the same way, a way that hasn’t brought you to where you want to be, who you want to be. You’ve been traveling a road that is known and well tread but, ultimately, too restrictive and self limiting.
Haven’t we all done this? Just gone along in life thinking we are progressing towards our goals, the vision of our biggest life, to find that we’re bumping against the walls of ourselves? Ping ponging off thoughts that lack imagination and freedom.
There’s a poignant yet painful sequence in the dance “Cafe Muller” by Pina Bausch. Two people embrace each other, a man enters and realigns their bodies and their embrace. They fall apart and approach each other again and again. Each time the man realigns their embrace in the same exact sequence. He leaves and the couple repeat this pattern precisely, even though there’s no need. Aren’t we all like this at times? Programmed in our actions, lost to our own presence?
“The first step… shall be to lose the way”. Lose the familiar path you’ve been walking on for so long. Lose the perceptions that hold you back. Lose the repetition. Lose your habits. Lose the deeply worn ruts that become walls, fences and moats in the landscape of being.
“The first step.. shall be to lose the way”. When you’ve lost the way you can find something different. You’ve entered mystery. There is so much freedom in not knowing. Each step and pause between steps is open to new interpretation, sensation, experience. When you’ve lost the way you need to stop, smell what you are smelling, listen to your gut and feel what you are feeling. When you’ve lost your way your hearing becomes acute and you see minute details of life that you blindly overlooked when you were living in the rote familiar. When you’ve lost the way you need to find a new way of fiercely loving yourself into the blessings you long for…and trust that they will come.