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The Way of Love
March 31, 2017
Why is it so hard to know how much we are loved and love? I recently had the opportunity to participate in Krishna Das’s Chai’n’Chat video show. One of the questions I asked him was about spiritual longing and how to maintain that ecstatic feeling of being in love with one’s spiritual teacher and path over years of practice. His answer was very simple yet profound. KD said that when his teacher was alive he saw him as the source of love. When he died KD plummeted into twenty years of despair and destructive behavior. Then he realized that all the love he felt he received from, and saw in, his teacher was inside of himself. He didn’t need to look outside for this love, he needed to know himself as the source of deep love.
This answer was the perfect gift at just the right time. I too struggle with feeling my day to day life is working to pay bills, the daily grind not being a cup of coffee, but rather the routines of survival that leave me cut off from Source and connection. How to find it when it seems so hidden?
In one of the most famous teachings in the Bhagavad Gita, Krishna tells Arjuna that love and devotion can be cultivated through regular practice; work selflessly without desire for results.Ha! Easier said than done. Haven't we all done something that appears to be about service only to find our egos enmeshed in the outcome of "perfect service"? I'll be the perfect volunteer, the perfect teacher, make the perfect meal. This drive towards perfection. whatever I'm doing needs to look a certain way with a certain outcome, holds us prisoner from experiencing loving devotion.
What happens when I let go of results? I get to be present in the here and now. I get to stand in my heart and experience this moment as love. Standing in this love, can my actions be ones of selfless service? Can I make my morning tea as an act of love? Can I greet someone on the street as an act of love? Even for a moment, can I see each breath I take as an act of love between myself and the One who continually creates all things? Just for today, what is the one action you can take that is an act of love? Please let me know what you chose and add it to the comments.